I have smile through silent pain, cry behind closed doors,
and fight battles when nobody knows about.
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people
just don’t care back. I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I have also learned that “If you have to speculate if someone loves you and wants to be with you,
chances are they don’t. It’s not that complicated. Don’t waste moments waiting
and wondering. Don’t throw away your time dreaming of someone that doesn’t want
you. No one is that amazing, certainly not the one who would pass you up”.
God knows who belongs in your life and who doesn’t. Trust
and let go. Whoever is meant to be there, will still be there.
Seriously, we should be strong and know when enough is
enough. Take your stand, speak up and refuse to let others hurt you. Know that
you are worth it because God created you and He has a better plan for you. You
are greater than the struggle, the pain, the times when you didn’t think you
could go another day repeating the kind of life you thought you were stuck
with. You are more than the tears spilled onto your pillowcase,
the secret notes you’ve scrawled with a heavy heart to yourself and yourself
alone because you did not know who else to turn to. You are God’s Child. It is
ok. We all stumble. We all can fall. But I believe you can stand up
once again through God’s grace.
First weekend of July 2014. This weekend has been a great one. I thank God for helping me to think about Him and to be close to Him.
Being a person who have a broken past, I feel lonely abit sometimes and today evening is one of those days. But God grace saved me and help me to focus in Him and in Him only. He keep reminding me not to worry about my future or anything, but to focus the moment and to learn how to be thankful for todays provision, to thank Him for the moment and to let Him control my future.
I meditate on God's word, which remind me about faith in God for His promises. Roman 4:16 Therefore, the promise comes by faith, so that it may be by grace and may be guaranteed to all Abraham's offspring-not only to those who are of the law but also to those who are of the faith of Abraham.
Every promise is the outcome of faith and depends entirely on faith. And it will be fulfil to us as an act of grace, an unmerited favor to all of us.
The scripture John 5:5&6 was an inspiration to me.
It says, we all need to prepare and be ready with faith to receive what God promised us to give. In the verse Jesus asked the man who had been paralyzed for thirty-eight years, "Do you want to get well?" i believed Jesus is asking him if he is ready to get well! or if he is really earnest about getting well!! The man answered, Sir, I have nobody when the water is moving to put me into the pool; but while I am trying to come into it myself, somebody else steps down ahead of me. Jesus said to him, "Get up! Pick up your bed and walk"!
Verse 9, Instantly the man became well and recovered his strength and picked up his bed and WALKED.
The story tells us that if we try and do what we can do and wait for the Lord, He will do what we can't do. We should do what we can do and get ready by preparing ourselves with faith to receive what God has promised for us. The question Jesus has asked the man teach us that He will give it to us when we are ready to accept.
There must be many of you like me who fall again and again while trying to get there, we may be going round and round and not able to get out from the circle to reach where we are suppose to reach. But if we put our trust in God and keep trying, doing all we can by getting ready with faith in Him by expecting Him, God will definitely come by and He will say "Get Up! Picked up your bed and walk".
For some of us God may have ready to give His promise but we somehow need to learned on the way like the Israelite who failed God many times while they where trying to reach Canaan. The distance is only Ten days journey but maybe because of what they had done against God's will and giving up God instead of focusing on His glory, and instead by getting ready they disobey God. They failed to seek God's will and His guidance. They became passive and as a result they wander in the journey for 40 years. But our god is a patient God and He never forget His covenant and promises for His people. He teach them to obey Him and to know Him more. Some of us may have given up and may have lost our focus while God is ready to say to us "Get up! Take your bed and walk!
We may be weak and may have fail many times but let us not give up. Let us be determined and keep moving forward to receive the promises of God in our life. Let us continue to take the steps with faith and let Him save us by His amazing Grace for all the steps we can't take.
Lets wait and trust in our Father for His promises and let Him come to us in His good time for His glory.
Being a person who have a broken past, I feel lonely abit sometimes and today evening is one of those days. But God grace saved me and help me to focus in Him and in Him only. He keep reminding me not to worry about my future or anything, but to focus the moment and to learn how to be thankful for todays provision, to thank Him for the moment and to let Him control my future.
I meditate on God's word, which remind me about faith in God for His promises. Roman 4:16 Therefore, the promise comes by faith, so that it may be by grace and may be guaranteed to all Abraham's offspring-not only to those who are of the law but also to those who are of the faith of Abraham.
Every promise is the outcome of faith and depends entirely on faith. And it will be fulfil to us as an act of grace, an unmerited favor to all of us.
The scripture John 5:5&6 was an inspiration to me.
It says, we all need to prepare and be ready with faith to receive what God promised us to give. In the verse Jesus asked the man who had been paralyzed for thirty-eight years, "Do you want to get well?" i believed Jesus is asking him if he is ready to get well! or if he is really earnest about getting well!! The man answered, Sir, I have nobody when the water is moving to put me into the pool; but while I am trying to come into it myself, somebody else steps down ahead of me. Jesus said to him, "Get up! Pick up your bed and walk"!
Verse 9, Instantly the man became well and recovered his strength and picked up his bed and WALKED.
The story tells us that if we try and do what we can do and wait for the Lord, He will do what we can't do. We should do what we can do and get ready by preparing ourselves with faith to receive what God has promised for us. The question Jesus has asked the man teach us that He will give it to us when we are ready to accept.
There must be many of you like me who fall again and again while trying to get there, we may be going round and round and not able to get out from the circle to reach where we are suppose to reach. But if we put our trust in God and keep trying, doing all we can by getting ready with faith in Him by expecting Him, God will definitely come by and He will say "Get Up! Picked up your bed and walk".
For some of us God may have ready to give His promise but we somehow need to learned on the way like the Israelite who failed God many times while they where trying to reach Canaan. The distance is only Ten days journey but maybe because of what they had done against God's will and giving up God instead of focusing on His glory, and instead by getting ready they disobey God. They failed to seek God's will and His guidance. They became passive and as a result they wander in the journey for 40 years. But our god is a patient God and He never forget His covenant and promises for His people. He teach them to obey Him and to know Him more. Some of us may have given up and may have lost our focus while God is ready to say to us "Get up! Take your bed and walk!
We may be weak and may have fail many times but let us not give up. Let us be determined and keep moving forward to receive the promises of God in our life. Let us continue to take the steps with faith and let Him save us by His amazing Grace for all the steps we can't take.
Lets wait and trust in our Father for His promises and let Him come to us in His good time for His glory.


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I am happy and I know its all because of Him. I have nothing much in my mind to write today but all i know in my heart is that 'I am Happy'.
My Father has been teaching me so many things, new personality, new character, new mindset, new feelings and new spiritual life. I know i still am not yet there, but my journey is and has been going great. There are low and high, dark and bright, sweet and bitter. In every dimensions, in every parts, even in the silliest One my Father is always there.
Psalm 23: 3&4 is my journey. It says " He refreshes and restores my life; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake. Yes, though I walk through the valley of shawdow of death, I will fear or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me."
We are all in our journey, and if we ask our Father to lead us by submitting our life and our journey He will guide us. He will reveal Himself through His love and compassion that He is the Father and we are His child. He is always and always there, waiting and expecting us to come to Him.
Psalm 139:16 says our life 's journey are already written down in God's book. I believed when God created us He must have planned and thought wisely, lovingly and very meticulously about our life, our days and every sec we are living now. Yet we go away from His plan and that's how we got into the trouble of this world.
But if we seek God and submitt our ways to Him we have Psalm 23:6 "Surely only goodness, mercy, and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life, and through the length of my days the house of the Lord shall be my dwelling place."
My Father has been teaching me so many things, new personality, new character, new mindset, new feelings and new spiritual life. I know i still am not yet there, but my journey is and has been going great. There are low and high, dark and bright, sweet and bitter. In every dimensions, in every parts, even in the silliest One my Father is always there.
Psalm 23: 3&4 is my journey. It says " He refreshes and restores my life; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake. Yes, though I walk through the valley of shawdow of death, I will fear or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me."
We are all in our journey, and if we ask our Father to lead us by submitting our life and our journey He will guide us. He will reveal Himself through His love and compassion that He is the Father and we are His child. He is always and always there, waiting and expecting us to come to Him.
Psalm 139:16 says our life 's journey are already written down in God's book. I believed when God created us He must have planned and thought wisely, lovingly and very meticulously about our life, our days and every sec we are living now. Yet we go away from His plan and that's how we got into the trouble of this world.
But if we seek God and submitt our ways to Him we have Psalm 23:6 "Surely only goodness, mercy, and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life, and through the length of my days the house of the Lord shall be my dwelling place."
Isaiah 30:18 Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of Justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him.
Our Father in Heaven earnestly wait and look for us, expecting us to come close to Him so that He can bless us and show us His compassion. He is expecting an opportunity to be good to each of us and to be gracious to us. Therefore He lift Himself up so that we may have mercy and kindness from Him. And He is waiting for us to expect Him and wait for Him always.
God is good, there is no place to deep where the grace of our Father cannot reach, there is no place too dark where the grace of our Father cannot light up, there is no place too far where the grace of our Father cannot touch. He is generous, merciful, compassionate and longs for us to come to Him
I give thanks to my Father for leading me out from the dark phase of my life. I am blessed that, it is He who makes me lean on Him in my trouble days, and let me to take rest in Him. I am glad that i have come out from the way i once use to be and I am no longer the swallow spiritual i once used to be.
Once again today I stand a witness for His wonderful promises He has given me in His word. He multiply all whatever i have given Him. Than include my small faith, trust, love.
He have given me a new heart for my broken heart with a joyous joy a heart can hold. He has given me an amazing peace and put my unhealthy emotions to rest. He multiply every little money i have given to Him by returning much much more than I expected.
He has given me His eternally love and taught me the meaning of real relationship. I am really really blessed that i got to get His 'Expecting opportunity to bless'.
Our Father in Heaven earnestly wait and look for us, expecting us to come close to Him so that He can bless us and show us His compassion. He is expecting an opportunity to be good to each of us and to be gracious to us. Therefore He lift Himself up so that we may have mercy and kindness from Him. And He is waiting for us to expect Him and wait for Him always.
God is good, there is no place to deep where the grace of our Father cannot reach, there is no place too dark where the grace of our Father cannot light up, there is no place too far where the grace of our Father cannot touch. He is generous, merciful, compassionate and longs for us to come to Him
I give thanks to my Father for leading me out from the dark phase of my life. I am blessed that, it is He who makes me lean on Him in my trouble days, and let me to take rest in Him. I am glad that i have come out from the way i once use to be and I am no longer the swallow spiritual i once used to be.
Once again today I stand a witness for His wonderful promises He has given me in His word. He multiply all whatever i have given Him. Than include my small faith, trust, love.
He have given me a new heart for my broken heart with a joyous joy a heart can hold. He has given me an amazing peace and put my unhealthy emotions to rest. He multiply every little money i have given to Him by returning much much more than I expected.
He has given me His eternally love and taught me the meaning of real relationship. I am really really blessed that i got to get His 'Expecting opportunity to bless'.
Me and three friends had a trip to the spectacular, cold desert landscape of Spiti. We had a great time learning and discovering the creation of our heavenly Father. I was amazed to see the wonderful works of God. The huge mountains, the icy ones, the rocky ones and the sandy ones, they provide an up-close encounter with the Great Mystery. Before such beauty I found myself reduced to silence. It was like standing before the blue ocean or looking up at the night sky and seeing a million stars and the Milky Way. Suddenly, you find how tiny you and your problems are.
I had enjoyed the view, felt the gentle fresh breeze, touched the beautiful river with crystal clear water, listened to the sounds of the wind whistling, and the rushing and crashing sounds of the river.
One can't help but think of the our God the Creator before this stunning scene.
I came across some of the most polite and humble people living up there. They don't worry about the weather, the food crop and clothing. It reminds me of God our provider who created them provides all their needs. They knows no fears for the cold winter, but they prepare and get ready while the suns is warm and when the days are summer. Life could be harsh and vegetation could be unsuitable for human inhabitants there at times. Yet they are happy, content with life and peaceful, and just so cool. I am grateful that I have met them during this journey.
God is amazing and his creation are amazing too. They are all created with a purpose, that include the morning dew for the dry lands, the sandy plains for the rocky mountains and the icy mountains with the crystal clear river. They are all beautiful and awe-inspiring. God is simply too big, too good, too mysterious, too loving, too truthful and too overwhelming.
I am thankful for the journey I got from my Father that i got to learnt and see many things.
On our way back, we stop for a break enjoying the breath taking views of the mountains.
"Consider the lilies of the field." "Learn a lesson from the fig tree." "Look at the birds in the sky". God creation teaches us so many things.
The Crazy Trip



Hi, i am back from the trip to Ladakh and if you ask me how was it!!! I would say that was a crazy trip. I had seen amazing places and landscape, I crawl my way to the 2nd highest motorable road in the world. Been there and have felt it.. the highness of being at the top of the world. I have felt the snow fall for the first time in my life. Walked on a steep (very very steep) muddy road in the middle of the night using only blurry shimmering light from mobile phone. Seen all those romantic and amazing places which you saw only in postcard and movies. The rivers with crystal clear water, the green pasture with the black beauty horses grazing, snowy mountains and those beautiful wild flowers were some of the views which still remain in my mind today and will remain forever. Leh will serve you a very limited non-vegs meal. And so for super non-vegetarian like us we missed so badly, I have never felt such a huge craving for pork and bamboo shoot in my life like i did there in Leh. We started our journey on 28th Tuesday night, reached Manali on the next day at around 11:30 am and set off for Leh through Rotang Pass at 2:00pm. We got stuck at Rotang for 6 hrs in the middle of the night because of land slide, and reach Leh on 30th Thursday evening 9:00 pm. According to what we planned, we were suppose to reach in the morning however all the scary and crazy experience in this journey is worth messing up our plan.


We spend two nights and two days at Leh, visit Shanti Stupa, Pangong Lake and drive around the city. It was one of the most tiresome yet crazy experience I ever had. I am glad I have visited one of 'my Dream Place to visit'. Now I checked Leh and next target is Daman and Diu.
PS: The crazy gang - Azei, Injiana, Gaigun, Asana, Tingku and Suai.


I had enjoyed the view, felt the gentle fresh breeze, touched the beautiful river with crystal clear water, listened to the sounds of the wind whistling, and the rushing and crashing sounds of the river.
One can't help but think of the our God the Creator before this stunning scene.
I came across some of the most polite and humble people living up there. They don't worry about the weather, the food crop and clothing. It reminds me of God our provider who created them provides all their needs. They knows no fears for the cold winter, but they prepare and get ready while the suns is warm and when the days are summer. Life could be harsh and vegetation could be unsuitable for human inhabitants there at times. Yet they are happy, content with life and peaceful, and just so cool. I am grateful that I have met them during this journey.
God is amazing and his creation are amazing too. They are all created with a purpose, that include the morning dew for the dry lands, the sandy plains for the rocky mountains and the icy mountains with the crystal clear river. They are all beautiful and awe-inspiring. God is simply too big, too good, too mysterious, too loving, too truthful and too overwhelming.
I am thankful for the journey I got from my Father that i got to learnt and see many things.
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The early morning view from Rekong Peo |
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Passed through this rocky mountains. The harsh but beautiful rocky mountains recenters you, helps you reclaim your soul and makes you feel more human. |
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Kaza is one of our destination. |
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Kaza, the headquarters of Spiti sub-district. |
Kaza Surprised us with Khyoma. A restaurant run by a family from Manipur. And not to forget, we had our special Naga Chilli chatni, relishing our appetite after the long drive. |
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Ki Monastry was established in the 11th century and is one of the biggest monastery in Spiti Valley. |
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JOY!! We had a bit of our dance on top of the monastery. |
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On top of the world, Kibber Village .The highest village in the world which is connected by motorable road and is the highest habituated village in the world. |
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The family. The dry sandy mountains comes alive with this gentle people around. |
On our way back, we stop for a break enjoying the breath taking views of the mountains.
"Consider the lilies of the field." "Learn a lesson from the fig tree." "Look at the birds in the sky". God creation teaches us so many things.
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We said goodbye to the mountains. |
The Crazy Trip

Hi, i am back from the trip to Ladakh and if you ask me how was it!!! I would say that was a crazy trip. I had seen amazing places and landscape, I crawl my way to the 2nd highest motorable road in the world. Been there and have felt it.. the highness of being at the top of the world. I have felt the snow fall for the first time in my life. Walked on a steep (very very steep) muddy road in the middle of the night using only blurry shimmering light from mobile phone. Seen all those romantic and amazing places which you saw only in postcard and movies. The rivers with crystal clear water, the green pasture with the black beauty horses grazing, snowy mountains and those beautiful wild flowers were some of the views which still remain in my mind today and will remain forever. Leh will serve you a very limited non-vegs meal. And so for super non-vegetarian like us we missed so badly, I have never felt such a huge craving for pork and bamboo shoot in my life like i did there in Leh. We started our journey on 28th Tuesday night, reached Manali on the next day at around 11:30 am and set off for Leh through Rotang Pass at 2:00pm. We got stuck at Rotang for 6 hrs in the middle of the night because of land slide, and reach Leh on 30th Thursday evening 9:00 pm. According to what we planned, we were suppose to reach in the morning however all the scary and crazy experience in this journey is worth messing up our plan.

We spend two nights and two days at Leh, visit Shanti Stupa, Pangong Lake and drive around the city. It was one of the most tiresome yet crazy experience I ever had. I am glad I have visited one of 'my Dream Place to visit'. Now I checked Leh and next target is Daman and Diu.
PS: The crazy gang - Azei, Injiana, Gaigun, Asana, Tingku and Suai.
The inspiration for my life - Proverbs 31:
10 Who can find a virtuous wife?Reading this makes me proud to be a woman and makes me want to become a virtuous one!
For her worth is far above rubies.
11 The heart of her husband safely trusts her;
So he will have no lack of gain.
12 She does him good and not evil
All the days of her life.
13 She seeks wool and flax,
And willingly works with her hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
She brings her food from afar.
15 She also rises while it is yet night,
And provides food for her household,
And a portion for her maidservants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
From her profits she plants a vineyard.
17 She girds herself with strength,
And strengthens her arms.
18 She perceives that her merchandise is good,
And her lamp does not go out by night.
19 She stretches out her hands to the distaff,
And her hand holds the spindle.
20 She extends her hand to the poor,
Yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of snow for her household,
For all her household is clothed with scarlet.
22 She makes tapestry for herself;
Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates,
When he sits among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
And supplies sashes for the merchants.
25 Strength and honour are her clothing;
She shall rejoice in time to come.
26 She opens her mouth with wisdom,
And on her tongue is the law of kindness.
27 She watches over the ways of her household,
And does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children rise up and call her blessed;
Her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “ Many daughters have done well,
But you excel them all.”
30 Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing,
But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands,
And let her own works praise her in the gates.
Too often great women go unnoticed and without praise, not the Virtuous Woman.
I hope, as I journey, that I can emulate the characteristics of the virtuous woman through the grace from God.
Celebrating the resurrection of Jesus my Saviour. In Christ alone my hope is found, He is my light, my strength, my song. Today I stand in this cornerstone, this solid ground because of Him.
He is my comforter, my everything. I stand in His love and I am so blessed that He calls me His own. I thank Him for reminding me that I am the daughter of the Heavenly Father, that I am the princes of the most high King. He is generous in mercy and slow to anger. He plan and lead my life everyday, promising me every goodness for my future. He commands my destiny. I am His and He is mine
I am bought with the precious blood of Christ
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Could ever pluck me from His hand
'Til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand.
He is my comforter, my everything. I stand in His love and I am so blessed that He calls me His own. I thank Him for reminding me that I am the daughter of the Heavenly Father, that I am the princes of the most high King. He is generous in mercy and slow to anger. He plan and lead my life everyday, promising me every goodness for my future. He commands my destiny. I am His and He is mine
I am bought with the precious blood of Christ
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Could ever pluck me from His hand
'Til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand.
2014! Oh, what a year to start. God has his ways to do things for our life. He will let us walk through the rough path so that we may seek him, humble ourselves self, and come close to Him. My top prayer request at the beginning of this year was to help me to seek a closer relationship with Him. I have prayed for a strong relationship in Him and He separated from me the one person with whom I am closest, the one with whom I depend on the most, the one with whom my lives revolve around. Yes, God did separate this one person from me. He leads away from the one person from my life so that I seek and come closer to Him. Because He knew my relation with Him is not mature enough and unless I completely put Him first in everything of my life, I will not grow. Being a broken heart person I fight with lots of unhealthy emotions and negative thoughts everyday; It was not easy, of course it was not easy at all but God grace was with me through all this. I learnt so much from His word and from this phase. He showed me all the amazing promises he has promised for my life. He heal me emotionally and spiritually and lead me everyday. He bless me to make sense out of this purpose and it did not take me long to realise that this is God doing great things in my life.
I wish I have the faith of Abraham who trust God even to the extend of sacrificing the life of his only son.
I wish I have the patience of Joseph who endured all the pains and emotions when his own brothers sold him for 20 pieces of silver to the caravan who were passing by. He believed in God's promise and he wait patiently for God's glory in His life.
I fight with my negative thinking and unhealthy emotions everyday and through God's strength i win more than I loose. I discovered who my enemy is and I discovered what brings joy and peace to my spirit and my soul. I am learning and trusting God and His plan for my life. I have my heart's desire for my future and I have prayed about it, I have a strong faith that God is working on my prayer but I also trust His wills, for He promised me in His word - Isaiah 55:8 & 9 God says "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways" "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts".
I have committed myself to be only His and live faithfully in spirit, body, and soul. I have taken my stand and I am gonna stand strong until God send his breakthrough for my prayer and for my heart's desire. I trust in His faithfulness, I trust in His plan and I believe everything is taken care by Him. I am waiting in the Lord and I am happy that my hope is in Him, who is faithful and trustworthy.
I wish I have the faith of Abraham who trust God even to the extend of sacrificing the life of his only son.
I wish I have the patience of Joseph who endured all the pains and emotions when his own brothers sold him for 20 pieces of silver to the caravan who were passing by. He believed in God's promise and he wait patiently for God's glory in His life.
I fight with my negative thinking and unhealthy emotions everyday and through God's strength i win more than I loose. I discovered who my enemy is and I discovered what brings joy and peace to my spirit and my soul. I am learning and trusting God and His plan for my life. I have my heart's desire for my future and I have prayed about it, I have a strong faith that God is working on my prayer but I also trust His wills, for He promised me in His word - Isaiah 55:8 & 9 God says "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways" "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts".
I have committed myself to be only His and live faithfully in spirit, body, and soul. I have taken my stand and I am gonna stand strong until God send his breakthrough for my prayer and for my heart's desire. I trust in His faithfulness, I trust in His plan and I believe everything is taken care by Him. I am waiting in the Lord and I am happy that my hope is in Him, who is faithful and trustworthy.